Fine, I'll Be Responsible

Breathe in, breathe out.
I feel anxious. My heart is not at peace. I need to let this out.

I feel as if I'm commiting more mistakes by taking on so much responsibilities- and here I am, proving to myself that I'm a worthwhile bum. Though people would always commend me for delivering a job well done despite the procrastination, I have this gut feeling that I won't be able to surpass this hole I delibrately entered by doing just that.

Okay, so I accepted a job offered to me awhile ago. Since I really have no big league organizations at school (I mean, I have this tendency to be aloof at extra-curricular activities to enjoy being a lazy toad my whole college life), I surprisingly said yes when asked if I wanted to be the committee head for the Star Committee (Yes, don't laugh. I wonder if the other committees are named Crescent, Heart.. or something. I mean, I should know- but i forgot >:3). Kidding aside, so there. I took on the responsibility of spearheading the activities department of the PRSSP or the Public Relations Student Society of the Philippines - PLM Chapter. I always loved PR, the tedious work it instilled on me last sem was stupendous.

Aside from that, there would be an audition for the Grand Prix participants on Monday. Some of my friends, even some of the alumni, told me to try it out. I got nothing to lose and if ever I do get in, it would be an honor to represent the university for the next contest. The problem is, the training for the said competition would be very time consuming- if I ever get accepted. I wanted to join the group ever since I was in 2nd year college, and now here's my chance. It's my last year in college, it's now or never. But I'm still undecided, my heart is breaking me. I asked my mother if I should try, and she told me the same question I've been asking myself all this time "Kaya mo ba?".

GAH. I have so much responsibilities now, and I can't drop any of them because I love doing all of them. Most importantly, I can't neglect my school work u_u

KEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEL D:<