the 18th of July :)

Okaaay. So I wasn't able to do everything that I have planned out for today, but it was okay.

The other day, I've posted how undecided I am whether I should audition for the Grand Prix or not. This afternoon, I did. Though I was still unsure of what it entails, I went for it. Just for the sake of trying, and so I won't feel emo afterwards- thinking of the opportunity that passed. And I didn't make it. For some reason, I was so nervous and I buckled, stuttered, and ate my words. See I'm not usually like that, I've always been able to carry myself in some sort of degree of confidence, especially in speech. But what happened awhile ago, was totally different. And I didn't feel bad :)) I don't know why, but I'm really not expecting that I would pass. And the time I spent there waiting was spent well too :>

haha. so after two years of admiration from afar, i finally had the chance to talk to my happy-crush for hours. :3 he made so much sense! the hours passed and it was far from boring~ he was fun and flawed and cool and pogi and all. LOL. I also had the chance to tell him about how much I hated him when we were in 2nd year, because of his attitude. But now I've come to understand him- which made things more cool :)) but i stress on this part, I just like him. like as in like, walang bahid ng love or any malicious chever that a normal person would think. i mean, he's faaaar in the there. And i'm heeeere. ganun kalayo, so wag ng isipin. Today was a winner. yipee :)

oh oh! there was also this instance when my friend (who was with me) asked "him" of what was his first impression of me. Tahimik daw and out of this world. NICE =))