Okay. I don't know why I always say "okay" when I want to vent, but I don't want to. Then later on I'll decide that I would. Okay that was confusing, you shouldn't be reading this in the first place.

I am perplexing, even I confuse myself a lot. So what's the point of posting this anyway -.- I don't even know what to write about! All I know is that I should be doing this, because it would make me feel better somehow. But how the hell am I gonna do that if I don't even know what's bothering me o_o i'm fucked up :)) don't tell me that this is brought about by sleep deprivation for days, nor the surmounting amount of caffeine in my freaking body. Because I've been living this life for the past two years. Come to think of it, I was never normal. LOL.

I don't know. I am tired. I do lack sleep. I haven't been eating properly. I rarely drink water. I don't get enough rest. I'm physically and mentally beat.

Things never get done. Well, I finish one task but there is always a dozen pending. I know I don't have the right to rant about all of this shit because I have brought this upon myself. I could easily lay off all the unnecessary burden and focus in my academics. It's not that I can't.. I won't. I don't want to. Tired as I may be, this virtual world I creep myself into is not as fictional as others would put it.

Okay. After this, there's still a bunch waiting to be fed. And when I get to feed them, more younglings will come. Yeah I know, life is hard and that's just the way it is. But it doesn't mean that I can't rant about it.

I need a break.