hindi na lang ako magsasalita. nakakahiya naman sayo.
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Monday, June 14, 2010
56
this'll be the first.
given, not all relationships fare smoothly. there's bound to be a rocky path along the way, it depends on the both of you if you have the means to weather it or not.
and fck, i'll be ranting. you don't understand me.
why is to so difficult to point out that not because you're talking to someone, you're entertaining him already?
considering that the word "entertaining" is entirely subjective, we happen to have different perceptions. this is getting out of hand. and i admit, i'm perplexed. just because of a conservation that doesn't involve any sweet and cheesy shit, but just a usual conversation wherein two people share something about what's going on in there lives lately is actually considered conceited. You should've told me off the bat that "do not talk to those who show interest, not even a single look. or else"
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given, not all relationships fare smoothly. there's bound to be a rocky path along the way, it depends on the both of you if you have the means to weather it or not.
and fck, i'll be ranting. you don't understand me.
why is to so difficult to point out that not because you're talking to someone, you're entertaining him already?
considering that the word "entertaining" is entirely subjective, we happen to have different perceptions. this is getting out of hand. and i admit, i'm perplexed. just because of a conservation that doesn't involve any sweet and cheesy shit, but just a usual conversation wherein two people share something about what's going on in there lives lately is actually considered conceited. You should've told me off the bat that "do not talk to those who show interest, not even a single look. or else"
Wednesday, May 26, 2010
46
*breathe in. breathe out*
Transient. Momentary. Fleeting.
I need to think things through, without opening my mouth.
I need to ponder and analyze a lot of things, with my thoughts in my brain, not words in my tongue.
Fuck.
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Transient. Momentary. Fleeting.
I need to think things through, without opening my mouth.
I need to ponder and analyze a lot of things, with my thoughts in my brain, not words in my tongue.
Fuck.
92
Your madness breaks my heart- as your mind stirs
to the whirling of my soul,
I wish I could hurl all your troubles with a wave of
a wand;
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to the whirling of my soul,
I wish I could hurl all your troubles with a wave of
a wand;
Thursday, May 20, 2010
Goodbye, Life
I have long been compromised,
even before the end was bleak.
You’ve dragged me to horizons,
hung me at verticals.
I, with a smile.
You whispered it was for the greens,
as my feet played rhythms of my own desire.
I did not contest, for all had been fine.
You say I’m lost and out of focus,
you deemed the future vague.
You’ve let me down from whence I hung,
cut the cord in between the skyline.
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even before the end was bleak.
You’ve dragged me to horizons,
hung me at verticals.
I, with a smile.
You whispered it was for the greens,
as my feet played rhythms of my own desire.
I did not contest, for all had been fine.
You say I’m lost and out of focus,
you deemed the future vague.
You’ve let me down from whence I hung,
cut the cord in between the skyline.
Thursday, April 1, 2010
I'll kill you someday
I have always had a penchant for getting rid of things, but I never really had the bluster to execute my well-crafted plans. No matter how much I want to shape up, straighten out and be the best damn person that I could be, I can't.
Fuck you :(
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Fuck you :(
Thursday, January 7, 2010
No Title. Boo.
To ten million fireflies, I'm weird cause I hate goodbyes.
I got misty eyes as they said farewell.
I have been playing this song for almost 15 consecutive times already, it's ambiance is so serene and captivating. I love Owl City <3
Well as you may have guessed, this entry is another one of my usual rants. I am probably a closet emo of some sort, because of my tendency to be moody and being emotionally unstable, I have all sorts of emotions locked up inside me. Pathetic, I know. Sometimes I wish I really am dense as others think of me. Sometimes I wish I just don't care and I can easily block the negativities I would like to get rid of.
I am actually fond of doing that and unlike other people, I can actually succeed. But like what I read from one of my brothers' Magic: TCG' flavor text:
"Memories cut from the mind can cut right back."
Even if I manage to disregard it today, as inevitable as it is, I'd remember it someday. And all the emotions would come back rushing. Pathetic. Sadly, this is not one of those posts in which I'd feel better for letting it out afterwards. I'd still be disturbed, I'd still be bothered. Because I know that after I hit the "Publish Post" button, things would still be the same.
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I got misty eyes as they said farewell.
I have been playing this song for almost 15 consecutive times already, it's ambiance is so serene and captivating. I love Owl City <3
Well as you may have guessed, this entry is another one of my usual rants. I am probably a closet emo of some sort, because of my tendency to be moody and being emotionally unstable, I have all sorts of emotions locked up inside me. Pathetic, I know. Sometimes I wish I really am dense as others think of me. Sometimes I wish I just don't care and I can easily block the negativities I would like to get rid of.
I am actually fond of doing that and unlike other people, I can actually succeed. But like what I read from one of my brothers' Magic: TCG' flavor text:
"Memories cut from the mind can cut right back."
Even if I manage to disregard it today, as inevitable as it is, I'd remember it someday. And all the emotions would come back rushing. Pathetic. Sadly, this is not one of those posts in which I'd feel better for letting it out afterwards. I'd still be disturbed, I'd still be bothered. Because I know that after I hit the "Publish Post" button, things would still be the same.
Wednesday, December 23, 2009
Humbug~
It's sad to see that this blogsite has become a venue for inhibited thoughts and repressed feelings. But then again, that was the primary purpose as to why this parcel was formed.
It's the 23rd! :) Two days before the big day, the supposed highlight of the year- when people should be happy for no apparent reason. It's the time of the year when these two wonderful words come alive without bashing - "Just Because".
And until now, I feel no spark of the season. :(
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It's the 23rd! :) Two days before the big day, the supposed highlight of the year- when people should be happy for no apparent reason. It's the time of the year when these two wonderful words come alive without bashing - "Just Because".
And until now, I feel no spark of the season. :(
Wednesday, December 9, 2009
Fall from Grace
I need this phase to finish - fast. I don't like it. I don't know why I allowed it to happen. I hate this feeling; when one is confined in a situation where emotions are unstable, where conflict may arise in any given time.
I wish to vent to all my heart's desire, but I am taken aback by the possibilities of other people reading this post. Albeit there aren't much who are aware of the owner of this blog site, I still have silly inhibitions of letting out this fcking feeling.
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I wish to vent to all my heart's desire, but I am taken aback by the possibilities of other people reading this post. Albeit there aren't much who are aware of the owner of this blog site, I still have silly inhibitions of letting out this fcking feeling.
Monday, November 16, 2009
What would you do. . .
. . . if the person you've trusted and loved has actually been a lie from the very beginning?
Okay I won't jump into conclusions yet, not unless I talk to him. But I don't think that's possible, and assuming the worst case scenario (that he, indeed lied to my face for almost two years) won't hurt either. I don't have any grudges, nor does murderous thoughts dwell in my mind. I just wanted to talk, I just want to know why you did that and why you didn't tell me.
I know its mostly my fault, I allowed for such things to happen without even thinking twice. I don't regret anything, and looking back on the events that had transpired- i can't help but laugh if that really is the case :)) I had fun, no doubt. And I know that even if you did or didn't lie, a thing won't change between us. It's already over anyway. But I still feel that you owe me an explanation. Its easy if everything would just fit in the puzzle, then assuming wouldn't be a trouble. The sad thing is, all i have is a name, memories and speculations. All i can do is put a piece here and there, but at the end of the day, all of it doesn't really fit together. Sadly, I can't use a glue, jam it in the board and force myself to believe that it really is that way. Because I think that I'm duping myself too much if I let this go on, I think its time for truths now. And I can't grab truths from the pond, I need to hear them from you.
So please, enlighten me . :))
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Okay I won't jump into conclusions yet, not unless I talk to him. But I don't think that's possible, and assuming the worst case scenario (that he, indeed lied to my face for almost two years) won't hurt either. I don't have any grudges, nor does murderous thoughts dwell in my mind. I just wanted to talk, I just want to know why you did that and why you didn't tell me.
I know its mostly my fault, I allowed for such things to happen without even thinking twice. I don't regret anything, and looking back on the events that had transpired- i can't help but laugh if that really is the case :)) I had fun, no doubt. And I know that even if you did or didn't lie, a thing won't change between us. It's already over anyway. But I still feel that you owe me an explanation. Its easy if everything would just fit in the puzzle, then assuming wouldn't be a trouble. The sad thing is, all i have is a name, memories and speculations. All i can do is put a piece here and there, but at the end of the day, all of it doesn't really fit together. Sadly, I can't use a glue, jam it in the board and force myself to believe that it really is that way. Because I think that I'm duping myself too much if I let this go on, I think its time for truths now. And I can't grab truths from the pond, I need to hear them from you.
So please, enlighten me . :))
Monday, November 9, 2009
A Blog Post
Yehess~ This is my first post for this semester. Weird as it may be, I tend to blog a lot during weeks of stress and anxiety. Seeing as life had been great to me for the previous weeks, I forgot to update my small parcel of the vast virtual universe. But for motivation's sake- here i am~ trying to write whatever it is that pops out of my feeble mind.
Currently Reading: Nightmares and Dreamscapes by Stephen King
Currently Watching: Soul Eater Season 2
LSS: Out of my League
Craving for: Champorado
Attended: Level Up! Live (November 7, 2009 @ World Trade Center) and Anime Overload Festival (November 8, 2009 @ SMX Convention Center)
Working on: A LOT OF SHIT :D
It's the second week of what is supposedly my last semester in college. School load hasn't clinged on to me like a fat panda bear yet, but extra-curriculars are bombarding me like crazy. Talk about deadlines, blessed is the day that I stop procrastinating.
So for the following months, I promise that I will try to be responsible not only in school and at work, but also at home and to myself. I'll try to stop harassing myself [that didn't sound right :))] because medicine is expensive D:
Okay~ I ran out of things to say. HAHA. See i'm not as talkative as others presume D: It just so happens that circumstances allow me to say everything that's on my mind on instances when my mind is filled with all these crazy notions. Or maybe, I just ran out of things to say because I already ranted at someone's face awhile ago :3
OH YEAH! I hate people who try so hard to be leftists who can't even prove their damn point, nor construct paragraphs with proper grammar. SHUT UP YOU FOOLS~ :D HAHA.
Im'ma go nao because my mind is going topsy turvy and i've nothing to say :3
chow!
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Currently Reading: Nightmares and Dreamscapes by Stephen King
Currently Watching: Soul Eater Season 2
LSS: Out of my League
Craving for: Champorado
Attended: Level Up! Live (November 7, 2009 @ World Trade Center) and Anime Overload Festival (November 8, 2009 @ SMX Convention Center)
Working on: A LOT OF SHIT :D
It's the second week of what is supposedly my last semester in college. School load hasn't clinged on to me like a fat panda bear yet, but extra-curriculars are bombarding me like crazy. Talk about deadlines, blessed is the day that I stop procrastinating.
So for the following months, I promise that I will try to be responsible not only in school and at work, but also at home and to myself. I'll try to stop harassing myself [that didn't sound right :))] because medicine is expensive D:
Okay~ I ran out of things to say. HAHA. See i'm not as talkative as others presume D: It just so happens that circumstances allow me to say everything that's on my mind on instances when my mind is filled with all these crazy notions. Or maybe, I just ran out of things to say because I already ranted at someone's face awhile ago :3
OH YEAH! I hate people who try so hard to be leftists who can't even prove their damn point, nor construct paragraphs with proper grammar. SHUT UP YOU FOOLS~ :D HAHA.
Im'ma go nao because my mind is going topsy turvy and i've nothing to say :3
chow!
Friday, October 16, 2009
PJ :)
What's with a park?
Eto na lang ung naiwan kong memory ng PhotoJourn class ko this sem, aside sa mga rolls of film sa drawer ko =))
The seventh part of the life formula, the Sequence:
SUBJECT: Luneta
Thursday, September 24, 2009
it really doesn't matter what i feel.
i give up.
it doesn't make sense anymore.
i'm tired of this vicious cycle.
i'm tired of trying.
i'm tired of waiting.
i'm tired of being someone that i want to be,
someone who could never be me.
I'm going home :)
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i give up.
it doesn't make sense anymore.
i'm tired of this vicious cycle.
i'm tired of trying.
i'm tired of waiting.
i'm tired of being someone that i want to be,
someone who could never be me.
I'm going home :)
Monday, September 21, 2009
chill :D
Time out muna. Mula sa tambak na school work, naiwang trabaho at sakit sa katawan.
Oye, though I was able to sleep for more than 6 hours today, it still wasn't enough cause I wake up every hour
since 6AM, trying to get up and continue working on our thesis. Kaso 10AM na ko nakabangon, parang sinayang ko lang ung apat na oras kasi hindi rin naman ako nakatulog ng maayos.
9PM na. Atlast, natapos din sa thesis. May naiwan pang isang pahirap na kailangan din ipasa bukas. Bakit ba kasi naging proponent pa ko -.-" dagdag trabaho tuloy. Haha okay wala ko karapatang umangal. Err o.o maya maya na yun, kailangan ko ata muna mag unwind. Pero weird kasi PC parin kaharap ko. Naka apat na bote na ata ako ng isang litrong coke ngayong araw, at iinom pa ko. I need sugar. I need caffeine.
So ayun. How do you know na hindi mo na mahal ang isang tao? (sabay ganun eh no)
Dahil ba hindi mo na siya araw araw kausap, hindi mo na siya (gaano) naiisip at 'di katulad dati, hindi mo nami-miss ang mga message niya at tinatamad ka ng makipag usap sakanya.
Dahil ba ngayon tanggap mo nang wala siyang kwentang kausap dahil kahit gaano kahaba ang text mo ay irereply niya lang sayo "okay :))" and things like that?
Dahil ba hindi tulad noon, hindi mo na naiisip na magkikita din kayong dalawa sa hinaharap upang maiayos ang lahat?
Dahil ba totoong hindi ka na umaasang babalik siya at wala ka na rin balak pang makipag balikan kasi wala naman talagang patutunguhan?
Dahil ba hindi ka na nalulungkot na hindi mo na boyfriend yung crush mo dati?
Dahil ba nagagamit mo na ang mga binigay niya ng hindi nag se-senti?
Dahil ba pag nakikita mo ang picture niya ngayon, hindi ka napapa isip na sana hindi ka na lang nakipag break?
Dahil ba kaya mo ng magshare sakanya ng mga bagay na maaaring magpahiwatig na wala kayong pag asa, di katulad ng dati na hindi nag bago ang pag trato mo sakanya?
Kung ganun nga, edi okay. If not, I guess I won't know for sure until I see him personally. Which I doubt na mangyayari kasi ayoko na din siyang makita, kumpara dati na i exerted so much just to see him. Kasi sa palagay ko kahit mag kita kami, wala namang magbabago. Hindi na babalik yung naramdaman ko para sakanya, kasi hindi na siya yung minahal ko noon.
Oo nga. Siguro mali yung pag mag bago yung tao, kesa tanggapin mo, hindi mo na mamahalin. Edi mali ako o.o
Ganun eh. So pano mo naman malalaman kung mahal mo na yung tao? Kung you just became too attached, or infatuated and all that shit.
Isang sign na ba yung dati lahat nasasabi mo sakaniya, kaso ngayon may mga bagay ka ng tinatago kasi hindi pwede. . o.o
Yung, gusto mo gawin yung mga bagay para lang maging masaya siya.
Yung, kulang yung araw mo pag 'di mo siya nakausap.
and all that shit :))
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Oye, though I was able to sleep for more than 6 hours today, it still wasn't enough cause I wake up every hour
since 6AM, trying to get up and continue working on our thesis. Kaso 10AM na ko nakabangon, parang sinayang ko lang ung apat na oras kasi hindi rin naman ako nakatulog ng maayos.
9PM na. Atlast, natapos din sa thesis. May naiwan pang isang pahirap na kailangan din ipasa bukas. Bakit ba kasi naging proponent pa ko -.-" dagdag trabaho tuloy. Haha okay wala ko karapatang umangal. Err o.o maya maya na yun, kailangan ko ata muna mag unwind. Pero weird kasi PC parin kaharap ko. Naka apat na bote na ata ako ng isang litrong coke ngayong araw, at iinom pa ko. I need sugar. I need caffeine.
So ayun. How do you know na hindi mo na mahal ang isang tao? (sabay ganun eh no)
Dahil ba hindi mo na siya araw araw kausap, hindi mo na siya (gaano) naiisip at 'di katulad dati, hindi mo nami-miss ang mga message niya at tinatamad ka ng makipag usap sakanya.
Dahil ba ngayon tanggap mo nang wala siyang kwentang kausap dahil kahit gaano kahaba ang text mo ay irereply niya lang sayo "okay :))" and things like that?
Dahil ba hindi tulad noon, hindi mo na naiisip na magkikita din kayong dalawa sa hinaharap upang maiayos ang lahat?
Dahil ba totoong hindi ka na umaasang babalik siya at wala ka na rin balak pang makipag balikan kasi wala naman talagang patutunguhan?
Dahil ba hindi ka na nalulungkot na hindi mo na boyfriend yung crush mo dati?
Dahil ba nagagamit mo na ang mga binigay niya ng hindi nag se-senti?
Dahil ba pag nakikita mo ang picture niya ngayon, hindi ka napapa isip na sana hindi ka na lang nakipag break?
Dahil ba kaya mo ng magshare sakanya ng mga bagay na maaaring magpahiwatig na wala kayong pag asa, di katulad ng dati na hindi nag bago ang pag trato mo sakanya?
Kung ganun nga, edi okay. If not, I guess I won't know for sure until I see him personally. Which I doubt na mangyayari kasi ayoko na din siyang makita, kumpara dati na i exerted so much just to see him. Kasi sa palagay ko kahit mag kita kami, wala namang magbabago. Hindi na babalik yung naramdaman ko para sakanya, kasi hindi na siya yung minahal ko noon.
Oo nga. Siguro mali yung pag mag bago yung tao, kesa tanggapin mo, hindi mo na mamahalin. Edi mali ako o.o
Ganun eh. So pano mo naman malalaman kung mahal mo na yung tao? Kung you just became too attached, or infatuated and all that shit.
Isang sign na ba yung dati lahat nasasabi mo sakaniya, kaso ngayon may mga bagay ka ng tinatago kasi hindi pwede. . o.o
Yung, gusto mo gawin yung mga bagay para lang maging masaya siya.
Yung, kulang yung araw mo pag 'di mo siya nakausap.
and all that shit :))
Wednesday, September 16, 2009
hooray for today! LOL :))
yey~ was able to finish four articles today. Still have one pending, but I'm thinking of finishing it tomorrow o.o
Today has been a very productive day! Was able to gather Review of Related Lits and Studies at DLSU Lib, which I must commend for being very accomodating! Not only is their library big and jam packed with useful books, it's easy to locate them XD Even the xerox is cheap, and fast. yey for la salle! lol.
i feel so hypurrrr i think im starting to fix the things i left hanging~ :D
this is a very stupid post, sareeeeeee im just hypeeeerrr =))
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Today has been a very productive day! Was able to gather Review of Related Lits and Studies at DLSU Lib, which I must commend for being very accomodating! Not only is their library big and jam packed with useful books, it's easy to locate them XD Even the xerox is cheap, and fast. yey for la salle! lol.
i feel so hypurrrr i think im starting to fix the things i left hanging~ :D
this is a very stupid post, sareeeeeee im just hypeeeerrr =))
Friday, September 11, 2009
ReCap :D
rawr~ I got my much needed break today! But boo me because I still feel guilty. Don't ask why XDD haha. Sooooo, I plan to make the most of my weekend~ and i'll be back to kickin ass on Monday :3
A quick recap of events! I have been quite busy with work for the past few weeks. I've been to four events already o_o
One was the ZX Event: Rise of the Emperor thinger @ SM Manila, where I first exercised my "media rights". I went there about an hour before the program ended (see i have classes during saturdays D:) but still! I met an old friend who now works in PlayGround Magazine, and he introduced me to a lot of people. It was fun, but the most enjoying part was receiving a goodie bag 8D yes i am shallow :> the T-Shirt roxx, but I'll never wear it.
Next was the Audition Event: Launch of the Hottest Gaming Barkada @ SM Manila, where I was both a marshall and a media peep o.o This event was quite different from the former, there were a lot of people until 7pm o_o It was like a big party place, filled with all kinds of people. There were so many celebrities and hot babes. HAHA. The event was tiring but it was extra fun~ After the event, I ate dinner with Ate Abby and Kuya Kiko (PR doods from Dominguez) at Max's. Then I went to Inasal to crash the dinner thinger of my fellow marshalls with EG GMs.
Third was the Runes of Magic Press Launch @ Greenbelt 3. If I weren't assigned to write about it, I wouldn't have attended. The rain was pouring so hard and curse me for wearing that footwear which gave me callouses o_o
Note to self: Don't go to events alone, you might get the urge to text your ex-boyfriend o.o HAHAHA!
The first few instances were boring because I'm not really interested in mingling, I don't feel like talking to other "media" people. Okay, I felt small. All of them were veterans of the craft, I was an amateur and a student. I don't think talking to them would benefit my ego in any way. HAHA. But the event proper was interesting. When you first enter the lobby of the cinema, you'd feel the creepy ambiance of the event brought about by the eerie sound played over and over. The event was hosted by Sam YG, who was very entertaining throughout. They even hired a magician to perform tricks on stage, but boo me because I forgot his name. They discussed how the game works and I must say that I am very interested to try it out o_o Aside from the free grub, the most memorable thing that happened that day is the raffle. It was my first time to win in a raffle, and lucky me because i received an 8gb ipod nano~ 8D
And lastly, the Operation 7 Press Launch @ The Podium. We arrived about five minutes before the call time, after rummaging through the streets of Ortigas looking for that freaking place under the heavy rain. Yeah it's my fault, we could've taken a more convenient path but bless me for loving walking so much. WAHAHA :)) Oh yeah, I brought someone along with me, Stephuu :D The event started at 3PM because there weren't much attendees during the first hour. I guess it was because of the horrible weather, traffic and all o.o The presentation was kind of cramped up, considering the amount of time they have left. Of course, theatrics were never a waste. It was all the more amusing, seeing Sir Franco with those "army men". After the product presentation, there was a merienda thinger located outside the cinema. After eating bread (haha the event was catered by Delifrance. It was delicious, mind you :>), we went back to the cinema for the free screening of the movie "Gamer" by Gerard Butler. It was okay, not uber duber nice.. but okay o.o
Well those are the mag work aspects of my life for the previous weeks that passed. But of course my life does not revolve on that alone. :3 Maybe next time I'll share about other vivid details~ I think that this post is already too long so I'll cut it off na. If there are any mispelled words or grammatical errors, forgive me because I didn't go through the shit that I have written. I did not re-read, I just typed whatever poppped out of my mind. HAHA. RAWR ! :D
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A quick recap of events! I have been quite busy with work for the past few weeks. I've been to four events already o_o
One was the ZX Event: Rise of the Emperor thinger @ SM Manila, where I first exercised my "media rights". I went there about an hour before the program ended (see i have classes during saturdays D:) but still! I met an old friend who now works in PlayGround Magazine, and he introduced me to a lot of people. It was fun, but the most enjoying part was receiving a goodie bag 8D yes i am shallow :> the T-Shirt roxx, but I'll never wear it.
Next was the Audition Event: Launch of the Hottest Gaming Barkada @ SM Manila, where I was both a marshall and a media peep o.o This event was quite different from the former, there were a lot of people until 7pm o_o It was like a big party place, filled with all kinds of people. There were so many celebrities and hot babes. HAHA. The event was tiring but it was extra fun~ After the event, I ate dinner with Ate Abby and Kuya Kiko (PR doods from Dominguez) at Max's. Then I went to Inasal to crash the dinner thinger of my fellow marshalls with EG GMs.
Third was the Runes of Magic Press Launch @ Greenbelt 3. If I weren't assigned to write about it, I wouldn't have attended. The rain was pouring so hard and curse me for wearing that footwear which gave me callouses o_o
Note to self: Don't go to events alone, you might get the urge to text your ex-boyfriend o.o HAHAHA!
The first few instances were boring because I'm not really interested in mingling, I don't feel like talking to other "media" people. Okay, I felt small. All of them were veterans of the craft, I was an amateur and a student. I don't think talking to them would benefit my ego in any way. HAHA. But the event proper was interesting. When you first enter the lobby of the cinema, you'd feel the creepy ambiance of the event brought about by the eerie sound played over and over. The event was hosted by Sam YG, who was very entertaining throughout. They even hired a magician to perform tricks on stage, but boo me because I forgot his name. They discussed how the game works and I must say that I am very interested to try it out o_o Aside from the free grub, the most memorable thing that happened that day is the raffle. It was my first time to win in a raffle, and lucky me because i received an 8gb ipod nano~ 8D
And lastly, the Operation 7 Press Launch @ The Podium. We arrived about five minutes before the call time, after rummaging through the streets of Ortigas looking for that freaking place under the heavy rain. Yeah it's my fault, we could've taken a more convenient path but bless me for loving walking so much. WAHAHA :)) Oh yeah, I brought someone along with me, Stephuu :D The event started at 3PM because there weren't much attendees during the first hour. I guess it was because of the horrible weather, traffic and all o.o The presentation was kind of cramped up, considering the amount of time they have left. Of course, theatrics were never a waste. It was all the more amusing, seeing Sir Franco with those "army men". After the product presentation, there was a merienda thinger located outside the cinema. After eating bread (haha the event was catered by Delifrance. It was delicious, mind you :>), we went back to the cinema for the free screening of the movie "Gamer" by Gerard Butler. It was okay, not uber duber nice.. but okay o.o
Well those are the mag work aspects of my life for the previous weeks that passed. But of course my life does not revolve on that alone. :3 Maybe next time I'll share about other vivid details~ I think that this post is already too long so I'll cut it off na. If there are any mispelled words or grammatical errors, forgive me because I didn't go through the shit that I have written. I did not re-read, I just typed whatever poppped out of my mind. HAHA. RAWR ! :D
Tuesday, September 1, 2009
Okay. I don't know why I always say "okay" when I want to vent, but I don't want to. Then later on I'll decide that I would. Okay that was confusing, you shouldn't be reading this in the first place.
I am perplexing, even I confuse myself a lot. So what's the point of posting this anyway -.- I don't even know what to write about! All I know is that I should be doing this, because it would make me feel better somehow. But how the hell am I gonna do that if I don't even know what's bothering me o_o i'm fucked up :)) don't tell me that this is brought about by sleep deprivation for days, nor the surmounting amount of caffeine in my freaking body. Because I've been living this life for the past two years. Come to think of it, I was never normal. LOL.
I don't know. I am tired. I do lack sleep. I haven't been eating properly. I rarely drink water. I don't get enough rest. I'm physically and mentally beat.
Things never get done. Well, I finish one task but there is always a dozen pending. I know I don't have the right to rant about all of this shit because I have brought this upon myself. I could easily lay off all the unnecessary burden and focus in my academics. It's not that I can't.. I won't. I don't want to. Tired as I may be, this virtual world I creep myself into is not as fictional as others would put it.
Okay. After this, there's still a bunch waiting to be fed. And when I get to feed them, more younglings will come. Yeah I know, life is hard and that's just the way it is. But it doesn't mean that I can't rant about it.
I need a break.
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I am perplexing, even I confuse myself a lot. So what's the point of posting this anyway -.- I don't even know what to write about! All I know is that I should be doing this, because it would make me feel better somehow. But how the hell am I gonna do that if I don't even know what's bothering me o_o i'm fucked up :)) don't tell me that this is brought about by sleep deprivation for days, nor the surmounting amount of caffeine in my freaking body. Because I've been living this life for the past two years. Come to think of it, I was never normal. LOL.
I don't know. I am tired. I do lack sleep. I haven't been eating properly. I rarely drink water. I don't get enough rest. I'm physically and mentally beat.
Things never get done. Well, I finish one task but there is always a dozen pending. I know I don't have the right to rant about all of this shit because I have brought this upon myself. I could easily lay off all the unnecessary burden and focus in my academics. It's not that I can't.. I won't. I don't want to. Tired as I may be, this virtual world I creep myself into is not as fictional as others would put it.
Okay. After this, there's still a bunch waiting to be fed. And when I get to feed them, more younglings will come. Yeah I know, life is hard and that's just the way it is. But it doesn't mean that I can't rant about it.
I need a break.
Monday, August 31, 2009
random thoughts
I dreamt of someone for two consecutive days, and it was happy. :)
And when I wake up, I'm left dumbfounded as to why that person was in my dream.
Okaay I don't know what to think ((: It's not really bothering me but I can't stop thinking about it. (ang contradicting XDD) I don't get it o.o I don't know what to think. I don't know what those dreams imply. I wonder if that person would still be with me when I sleep later o.o
humaygas ((:
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And when I wake up, I'm left dumbfounded as to why that person was in my dream.
Okaay I don't know what to think ((: It's not really bothering me but I can't stop thinking about it. (ang contradicting XDD) I don't get it o.o I don't know what to think. I don't know what those dreams imply. I wonder if that person would still be with me when I sleep later o.o
humaygas ((:
Monday, August 10, 2009
A Day in a Life
I haven't been able to update this lately, what with my busy schedule and all.But what the hell, I might as well stop duping myself and get on with the facts.
Okay, I wasn't busy. Atleast not too busy to disregard subtle things such as venting.I should be, but I'm not.
CURRENTLY READING: The Empty House by Algernon Blackwood [Yes I have time to read. I do so before I go to sleep or whenI'm traveling to and fro places, as the book is saved in my phone. Handy :P]
LSS: Mad Season - Matchbox20
CRAVING FOR: Peach Mango Pie D: It should come in big servings u.u
THINGS THAT I SHOULD BOTHER MYSELF WITH:
o Exteel and Audition Virtual Mall Article due TOMORROW for GAME! Magazine's October Issue(600 words per article) - which I haven't even started yet o_o
o SPC Midterm tomorrow (Research - Chapter 1) - I guess I'll just review tomorrow after our Film Writing class.
o Photojourn Midterm on Wednesday - real headache, my notes are still incomplete. How the hell am I gonna study o_o
o Library Hopping 2.0, The Real Search for RRLs
o Film Writing revision of scripts (milieu, character sketch, sequence outline & treatment) - because it was all half-assed and I wanted to make something I could be proud of.
o Radio Tour on Saturday, 10AM at Radio Mindanao Network
o OUR THESIS.
We had our topic consultation for our thesis last Tuesday, a day before Cory's burial. Classes were suspended but ours was exempted because we're way behind schedule. We were grateful that we had four approved topics out of 5 (see it was supposed to be 5, but we immediately negated one option that would prove to be a very sensitive topic) but we weren't aware of the difficulty of the implications it entailed. Well it wasn't that difficult, but we are required to gather RRLs of each approved topics to be passed tomorrow. And because we are "responsible" students, we decided to conduct our Library Hopping 1.0 today.
Our first destination was the National Library located at Manila. Well it was a total disappointment. I don't know if we're just plain ignorant of how to utilize what they have or they're just not as updated as we thought. We were looking for studies related to our topics, and we found nothing. Well we did come across four pages of articles from magazines, but that's not one would expect to have when you're in a freaking large library with so many books.
Because it seemed like a hopeless cause and seeing as it was already lunch time, we decided to go to Recto to hunt for theses conducted by students. You see, theses, dissertations,term papers and the like are for sale in that god forsaken place.
But before heading on with our task, we decided to eat at McDo near UE first. I even accidentally dropped a tray on someone's table o_o I apologized but it was their tray anyway, and they shouldn't have placed it in a narrow ledge where clumsy people (such as yours truly) could move. They accepted my apology and were bound to leave anyway, so technically no harm was done.
After the eating and ranting session, we decided to start our stupefying journey. We searched every corner, encountered so many works but still didn't find anything substantial that would aid our cause. And because I'm a lazy cow, I suggested that we surrender just for this day and make up for our failure on Library Hopping 2.0 which will be conducted on the same week, but with no particular day.
And now I'm off to deal with articles and research and all the shit that this world has to offer. CIAO! :D
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Okay, I wasn't busy. Atleast not too busy to disregard subtle things such as venting.I should be, but I'm not.
CURRENTLY READING: The Empty House by Algernon Blackwood [Yes I have time to read. I do so before I go to sleep or whenI'm traveling to and fro places, as the book is saved in my phone. Handy :P]
LSS: Mad Season - Matchbox20
CRAVING FOR: Peach Mango Pie D: It should come in big servings u.u
THINGS THAT I SHOULD BOTHER MYSELF WITH:
o Exteel and Audition Virtual Mall Article due TOMORROW for GAME! Magazine's October Issue(600 words per article) - which I haven't even started yet o_o
o SPC Midterm tomorrow (Research - Chapter 1) - I guess I'll just review tomorrow after our Film Writing class.
o Photojourn Midterm on Wednesday - real headache, my notes are still incomplete. How the hell am I gonna study o_o
o Library Hopping 2.0, The Real Search for RRLs
o Film Writing revision of scripts (milieu, character sketch, sequence outline & treatment) - because it was all half-assed and I wanted to make something I could be proud of.
o Radio Tour on Saturday, 10AM at Radio Mindanao Network
o OUR THESIS.
We had our topic consultation for our thesis last Tuesday, a day before Cory's burial. Classes were suspended but ours was exempted because we're way behind schedule. We were grateful that we had four approved topics out of 5 (see it was supposed to be 5, but we immediately negated one option that would prove to be a very sensitive topic) but we weren't aware of the difficulty of the implications it entailed. Well it wasn't that difficult, but we are required to gather RRLs of each approved topics to be passed tomorrow. And because we are "responsible" students, we decided to conduct our Library Hopping 1.0 today.
Our first destination was the National Library located at Manila. Well it was a total disappointment. I don't know if we're just plain ignorant of how to utilize what they have or they're just not as updated as we thought. We were looking for studies related to our topics, and we found nothing. Well we did come across four pages of articles from magazines, but that's not one would expect to have when you're in a freaking large library with so many books.
Because it seemed like a hopeless cause and seeing as it was already lunch time, we decided to go to Recto to hunt for theses conducted by students. You see, theses, dissertations,term papers and the like are for sale in that god forsaken place.
But before heading on with our task, we decided to eat at McDo near UE first. I even accidentally dropped a tray on someone's table o_o I apologized but it was their tray anyway, and they shouldn't have placed it in a narrow ledge where clumsy people (such as yours truly) could move. They accepted my apology and were bound to leave anyway, so technically no harm was done.
After the eating and ranting session, we decided to start our stupefying journey. We searched every corner, encountered so many works but still didn't find anything substantial that would aid our cause. And because I'm a lazy cow, I suggested that we surrender just for this day and make up for our failure on Library Hopping 2.0 which will be conducted on the same week, but with no particular day.
And now I'm off to deal with articles and research and all the shit that this world has to offer. CIAO! :D
Tuesday, July 28, 2009
Random Thoughts
Bilib ako sa Presidente natin. Hindi dahil sa pagiging isang mabisang pangulo ng ating bansa, lalo na’t hindi sa mga nagawa niya para sa mamamayang Pilipino.
I mean, no matter how much you hate the person; you just can’t help but admire her for who she is. She is a very strong woman- independent, fierce and driven. Albeit I don’t like her as our President and there have been countless moments that I want her ousted, I still respect her. The mere fact that she had been our President for nine years now is outstanding, after numerous impeachment trials, issues and controversies bombarding her everywhere to throw down the towel. You’ll probably lash back that she is like so because she is power hungry and she loves the authority hence the determinism, but don’t you see, that’s one thing- she really goes for what she wants.
Aside from that, she is smart. She has brains, and oh yes, she’s using it. Probably for her own motives because I never really saw growth in the country as what she boasted in her latest SONA, but it is well laid out that she had been able to go about her way despite the blockades. That every Filipino practically hates her, but at the end of the day- that hate really didn’t surmount to anything cause she’s still the President.
Unlike normal women, she seems undaunted of these emotional perspectives that females tend to apprehend. I’m not generalizing all, but no matter how much you hide it- most women tend to be emotional one way or another. So basically, if you tell someone that she is VERY infamous within the crowd she draws and they all want her down- she will go down. For dignity, for glory. But our little Miss President’s different, she doesn’t seem to care about what you and I think, she does what she sees fit.
I don’t like her but I admire her. Two different things, really. You must think I’m a hypocrite, and if you do, you’re narrow minded. On the other hand, speaking of politics- I’m of legal age now, and I haven’t registered yet. I’m probably waiting for the last day, or maybe- I don’t have plans to vote at all. Though I am interested in politics- as it is a circus of the educated, the selfish and the puppets; I still don’t feel motivated with the progress that’s going on so far. The mere fact that two Presidentiables are LITERALLY campaigning throughout the media is disgusting, desperate and pitiful. I know that other potential candidates are doing their own little agendas out there but the face palming truth these two bring about are just horrendous- imagine thousands of pesos are being allotted for this- instead of being given to poor families if they really want to help. But since I studied PR, I know that this information dissemination tool is vital. Well even if they build 500 schools, how the hell would people know about it without telling them through these ads right? That’s the sad part, the Filipino voters are still shallow at large. I mean, Villar just earned the top spot for the Presidentiable survey- and I think it is brought about by the MAAANY commercials and publicity stunts. And if that’s really the case, oh lord, the Filipinos have yet to open their eyes in scrutinizing potential public figures. Though I really don’t have anyone in mind, trusting politicians basing on what they want us to see, to what they want us to think of them is stupid. They think we’re stupid. And we’re biting it. Come on guys, wake up.
Kumilos naman tayo, maging mapanuri sa mga bagay bagay na nangyayari sa ating paligid. Wag basta magtitiwala sa nakikita at naririnig, mayroon tayong sariling pag iisip- gamitin natin ito.
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I mean, no matter how much you hate the person; you just can’t help but admire her for who she is. She is a very strong woman- independent, fierce and driven. Albeit I don’t like her as our President and there have been countless moments that I want her ousted, I still respect her. The mere fact that she had been our President for nine years now is outstanding, after numerous impeachment trials, issues and controversies bombarding her everywhere to throw down the towel. You’ll probably lash back that she is like so because she is power hungry and she loves the authority hence the determinism, but don’t you see, that’s one thing- she really goes for what she wants.
Aside from that, she is smart. She has brains, and oh yes, she’s using it. Probably for her own motives because I never really saw growth in the country as what she boasted in her latest SONA, but it is well laid out that she had been able to go about her way despite the blockades. That every Filipino practically hates her, but at the end of the day- that hate really didn’t surmount to anything cause she’s still the President.
Unlike normal women, she seems undaunted of these emotional perspectives that females tend to apprehend. I’m not generalizing all, but no matter how much you hide it- most women tend to be emotional one way or another. So basically, if you tell someone that she is VERY infamous within the crowd she draws and they all want her down- she will go down. For dignity, for glory. But our little Miss President’s different, she doesn’t seem to care about what you and I think, she does what she sees fit.
I don’t like her but I admire her. Two different things, really. You must think I’m a hypocrite, and if you do, you’re narrow minded. On the other hand, speaking of politics- I’m of legal age now, and I haven’t registered yet. I’m probably waiting for the last day, or maybe- I don’t have plans to vote at all. Though I am interested in politics- as it is a circus of the educated, the selfish and the puppets; I still don’t feel motivated with the progress that’s going on so far. The mere fact that two Presidentiables are LITERALLY campaigning throughout the media is disgusting, desperate and pitiful. I know that other potential candidates are doing their own little agendas out there but the face palming truth these two bring about are just horrendous- imagine thousands of pesos are being allotted for this- instead of being given to poor families if they really want to help. But since I studied PR, I know that this information dissemination tool is vital. Well even if they build 500 schools, how the hell would people know about it without telling them through these ads right? That’s the sad part, the Filipino voters are still shallow at large. I mean, Villar just earned the top spot for the Presidentiable survey- and I think it is brought about by the MAAANY commercials and publicity stunts. And if that’s really the case, oh lord, the Filipinos have yet to open their eyes in scrutinizing potential public figures. Though I really don’t have anyone in mind, trusting politicians basing on what they want us to see, to what they want us to think of them is stupid. They think we’re stupid. And we’re biting it. Come on guys, wake up.
Kumilos naman tayo, maging mapanuri sa mga bagay bagay na nangyayari sa ating paligid. Wag basta magtitiwala sa nakikita at naririnig, mayroon tayong sariling pag iisip- gamitin natin ito.
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